Riding the Waves of Loss: Learning to Release What I Can’t Hold

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I recently made a video about how I’ve been navigating the loss of some very important people in my life. I ended up deleting it — it felt too personal to share. Still, the weight of it all sits heavily on my heart, and I need to put it into words. I might make another video eventually, but for now, writing seems to be the only way to release it.

Lately, grief has returned in waves. Three of the four people I loved have gone on to be with the LORD, and one is no longer part of my life. Each loss hurts in its own way, and each absence brings its own kind of ache. I feel sadness, anger, and disappointment. I know these emotions will fade with time — until the next wave comes, or until healing takes deeper root and the pain softens. I may never fully get over losing those now in Heaven, but the hope of seeing them again fills my heart with comfort.

The one who is still living but no longer part of my life has been the hardest to accept. There’s a deep, lingering ache — knowing they are no longer a part of my world. Over these past few years, I’ve realized just how fleeting life truly is — like a vapor that vanishes before you even notice it. That truth makes their absence even harder to bear. And yet, knowing life is so brief, I still question why I would allow distance to remain between me and someone I care about. But then reality settles in — and I’m reminded it’s not only my decision to make.

So, I continue learning to ride these waves — the ones that come, fade, and inevitably return.

Dear LORD, help me release the things and people You are asking me to let go of, even when my heart resists. Teach me to desire Your will above my own. Thank You, LORD.